Somehow it is as if i'm walking on a very thin string tided from a tree to another tree. 

may have phobias.. may feel like giving up.. may have motivation to walk towards the other tree.

each time when seeing others being so perfect, it do gives you the urge to become a perfect person.

but after being a perfect person, will there still be motivation in you? 

We ourself also know that there isnt any perfect person around.

so why try to do things that are impossible.

&then we also know that having love at these age will hurt us.

but why are we still trying to find love at these age.

That is why human are all strange beings. 

because we always do things that are hard to overcome.

&i am one of them. 

suddenly, it feels like this will never end.

it seems that there is no ending to these things.. 

There is never ending hurts from you.

Never ending negative thinkings of you.

never ending tiredness.

When will all these "never endings" stop?

I guess when it comes to a stop, 

i'll feel that i had put down this burden of mine.

&i'll definitely feel even better.

Even feel like improving myself into being a better person.

Will even find a better person. 

that day will come... real soon. 

by then, it'll be your loss....